Meal Time!

Many years ago, I came up with a program I called Mindful Eating And Living Sangha (M.E.A.L.S.) based on the success I had with the book "Savor" in 2010. I envisioned a network of small groups who would routinely get together and practice the following:

• Recite the Five Contemplations
• Share a Mindful Eating experience
• Read and discuss the book "Savor"
• Practice Mindful Movement

The idea was that I would start the first group -- at that time I was overextended -- and lead it for a year. Enough time, based on my own experience, to embody the process and experience "successful" attainment of one's goals. Once that year was done, the people in that group (from my larger local area) would go off and start another year long course which they would lead, and so on and so on.

My hope was that this year-long grassroots-group exploration will deepen my own practice further, help others establish mindfulness as a way of healthy living, and - hopefully - encourage them to go out and spread the practice through starting similar groups.  If successful, it could see a viral growth since those who complete the year, may hopefully create groups of their own and repeat the process, again and again.

The first MEALS group was wonderful and fairly successful.  No one in the group experienced the dramatic transformation I did, but they all got various benefits from it, and if there was even a small improvement to one's life, I would call that a success.  But alas, no one carried the group forward and MEALS went into hibernation.

Well, it has been stirring for the last year, and it seems to be waking up now!

I've been teaching the Dharma in Virtual Reality (a story for another day) for the last couple of years, or since the pandemic started,  and it's just wonderful.  The possibilities are limitless! Back in July of last year I started thinking I could bring MEALS into VR, but was stumped as to how. 

Mindful movement is somewhat doable, meditation is for sure, but how about food?  I tucked the idea in the back of my head and began mentioning it here and there.  There was a little interest but nothing ever woke the beast. Finally, one friend in the community approached me about the book that had helped me, and the seed was planted.  He started reading, experienced immediate, noticeable benefit and water and sunlight hit the seed and it started to grow!

All of this to say...MEALS v2 is in the early stages of coming into being at last, thanks to RickRolled (his tag in VR).  He asked me for a meeting with a few people, I agreed.  Next we discussed how to go about getting together and it blossomed into a full blow open to the public event with nearly 20 people attending from within and beyond the community of EvolVR. 

The session was beautiful, informative, heartfelt, moving, and productive! We are getting the people interested together via the EvolVR Discord Server and will be scheduling another meeting soon.  I'm extremely excited about it.

As a final note, perhaps due to the coming of the aforementioned meeting, I woke up on Monday of last week suddenly extremely motivated to rekindle my full "Savor" practice and I've been hitting it all this week and loving it.  I also, unrelated, have been practicing Lojong for another Buddhist practice training I'm involved in and it has helped and complimented my practices greatly! More on all of these things to come!

Where are you going?

In the opening pages of Savor there's a section that speaks on habit energy. It starts by sharing that classic Zen story you've probably heard before:

A man on a horse can be seen approaching in the distance by some villagers. As he gets closer, since he looks to be in a great hurry, a villaber yells out "Where are you going?" to which the man replies "I don't know...Ask the horse!!"

That horse is the many ways in which we find ourselves mindlessly grabbing a soda any time we are thirsty, or eating a dozen cookies instead of one, or buying cookies instead of a healthier choice! 

When I started out with Savor 11 years ago, I could identify a great many ways in which I allowed my habit energy to carry me through life. The one that always struck me as the most outstanding was going in to a coffee shop for a coffee, but walking out with a Denti Flapuccino (I don’t want to get any Barstucks legal notices because this isn't about bashing them) and a large chocolate chip cookie. About 900 calories instead of 20. I would have the thought of a coffee and the initial intention to get only a coffee. Waiting in the line, I had ample time to mindlessly tune out and scroll my phone or whatever. All the while standing in front of the baked goods rack. 

Now...this gets complex, but the short version of what would happen inside me was kind of like this: 

"I'll have a coffee.", I would think. 

scroll, glance up, scroll, glance around, scroll 

Then I would have a thought, "Man a frap would be so good" "Nah, I need to lay off the flapuccinos." 

"Well, I do, but it's Saturday, so I could enjoy one today and then Monday I'll start my diet." 

"No, I'll just get the coffee." 

scroll, glance up, scroll, glance around, scroll 

Walk out of the store with my Flapuccino and....a cookie?! *takes bite of cookie* 

"What the...when did I order the cookie?!" 

 Now, I have a lot of friends that work for BarStucks. I asked why they have 8 people working and not one around to take an order. Initially she said that they have a mandate to stay in their workstation no matter what. It's a completely ridiculous way of operating, especially when there never seemed to be a cashier at an "order here" station. No one else could move from their two foot square except that person who keeps the customer moving. Completely ridiculous. 

Unless...

…you don't really want people to move fast. Maybe you'd like for them to spend some time in line by the baked goods rack waiting to place their order. One article I read from 2016 says that 79% of shoppers will make an impulse purchase while waiting in line at the checkout, that last six feet to freedom. So there's that. 

 But let's go back to the process going on in my head and body when I was in the line. There's a couple of very deep complex things happening there that might not be completely obvious. 

First, I wanted a coffee, I resigned myself to coffee, and I had the thought of a different drink but I decide firmly on the coffee. Then bought a different drink. Why? Well, I have learned enough about myself to know that - for me - when I walk in the store that choice has already been made. In fact, most of the time, before I park my car or even pull in the parking lot, somewhere inside I have already decided I'm having that 500 calorie drink. 

There's a seed planted right at the very first thought of going for coffee. It's SO deep, and so tiny that I can hardly tell you when it happens even after 11 years of working to see it. But I do know it happens, and I know that - and here's the first really crucual thing that's not obvious - I'm not talking myself in to getting the drink...I'm talking myself out of it. That choice was already made, and now I'm trying to change my mind. 

 This has something to do with the fact that we can't NOT think about something that someone tells us not to think about. If you say "You should definitely NOT get a frozen 500 calorie drink" my mouth says "yeah, that's true..." while somehwhere inside me I'm saying "I'm totally getting a 500 calorie drink". And from that point on I'm scrolling through my phone, waiting in line, while I pretend to talk myself out of it. I'm not sure if everyone works this way, but that's what I've learned about me. 

 Now the second things is even less obvious. Somewhere wayyyyyy down below that internal struggle that has a little bit of my attention is another struggle. This is the one that says:

"Psst! I know we are here for coffee, and we both know you're having a 500 calorie frozen sugar drink instead...but dude...next time you look up, check out that sweet looking cookie!" 

 "you mean the chocolate chipcookie? 240 calories?" 

 "No dude...that's not a chocolate chip cookie....that, sir, is a Triple. Chocolate. CHUNK. Cookie from heaven! I mean...you can't get it, we alreday know that...I'm just sayin. Look at that thing." 

 So...while I think I'm trying to get a coffee, my brain is doing whatever the hell it wants, and I'm barely aware of one thing, much less all the others. This is our habit energy. Or mine anyhow. And as the book Savor says...

“We have to learn the art of stopping—stopping our running so that we can be present for and embrace our habit energies of worry, blame, guilt, and fear, and calm the strong emotions that dictate us. We have to learn to live fully in the present moment. We need to practice breathing in and breathing out with all our awareness. We have to learn to become mindful.”

If we can take even just ONE calming in and out breath to pause and think before we go in to the proverbial coffee shop and look down deeply at what is happening in our experience, we can choose with intention and stay focused. I have verified this to be true! I lost a lot of weight with this one simple practice! 

 What's the catch? Well, there is a small catch of course. We need this to be easier, and to be easier we must focus on it often. Daily meditation is a must. But luckily it can't, and doesn't have to, happen all at once. Start with a single breath. Three breaths. A minute. Five minutes.

What year is it?!

 Well, it's July 3rd.  If you know what Mondo Samu is, or who you think he is, then you probably already know my history and all about my old blog. If you're new here you may be wondering what/who the heck is all this about.  Either way, go back and read this post to get caught up.  Then come back here....I'll wait....

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You're back! Great...let's get started. Again.

So if you read that post, or the handful of others from 2019, you may be thinking "wow, he was back on track with his exercise and working on it...wonder what went wrong?"

Well, you see, there was this little thing called the Covid19 Pandemic. Lots of things happened.  Lots didn't. And in the blink of an eye...here we are. The year is 2021 and we are MAYBE just starting to emerge from this pandemic.  Don't get me wrong, it's still very much active. But vaccinations are slowly happening, and life is becoming again. Not returning to normal.  That's not a thing.  But it is becoming. Becoming a somewhat familiar-feeling, but entirely new, thing.

Anyhow, this isn't about the pandemic.  It's about fully embodying  my dharma practice.  If you caught up on the blog, you know that I was already living a pretty great life in 2019. Practice was strong, except I wasn't sure what - if any - direction I was headed in terms of teaching. I had somewhat accepted that I was a teacher and I was slowly accepting what that meant for me sans the "official" training I thought I needed to wear that title. Health was great, except I wasn't exercising steadily which had resulted in gaining back half of the weight I lost when I discovered the dharma 11 years ago today...ten at that time.

So I had rebooted the blog to help myself get back on track, and I had blown out the old posts to keep from limiting myself to being a "diet blog" but to instead live up to the name I had given it.  Mondo -- a sort of discussion between a teacher (all of us) and a student (also hopefully all of us) about the work or service we do. It was never meant to be my name...but it kind of became that as well.

And here we are.  Now...I'm happy to report that at that time I had gained over half the weight back, but after a year and a half of sitting on my but all day at home I have lost about half of that half! How did I lose weight while also doing nothing remotely resembling exercise??  Well, it was a breeze.  I changed my job criteria from world travel and eating out all the time to working and eating at home. Doesn't exactly seem like a recipe for weight loss, right?

I think this is a very important lesson though. What could be at the root of losing weight when you sit on your but and don't travel?! Something that is huge...no pun intended.  Restaurants everywhere, at least in America, give us SIGNIFICANTLY more food than we need to eat in a single meal.  And even when you eat healthy vegan or vegetarian foods, if you're eating way too much of it...you will gain weight, of course. Which is NOT mindful eating, by the way.

So what this shows me is that. when I was on the road, I was eating significantly more food than I needed because I was eating mindlessly and not wanting to waste food.  If my OLD blog was still around you'd see that that was a major factor in how I lived a life of largess in the first place.

So for a world crisis that changed many things and had many far more horrible outcomes, this was one thing - among many - that I actually benefited from during this last 1.5 years of weirdness. 

Now...let's try this once more.  I'll try to keep posting about both health and dharma (which are really the same, after all) and we'll see how this goes.  Today, on the 11th anniversary of me discovering the dharma and turning my life around...I'm also re-reading "Savor" By Thich Nhat Hanh and Dr. Lilian Cheung. For probably the 11th time as well.  I hope you'll find something useful for you or someone you know in these posts and I look forward to seeing what comes next!

SUGAR

I've been at my resumed health focus for several weeks now and things are going well.  I've been exercising daily, which is the real victory here, and eating healthy most of the time.  I saw this Dave Kellett "Sheldon" comic strip today and I had to share it here.  It made me laugh because I can really REALLY identify with Grandpa here.

Early in the process of mindful eating and living -- and trust me, one month is still early in getting back in the daily habit! -- you catch yourself slipping more and more as you bring mindfulness to bear on your daily life. The good news is that -- like with Buddhism in general -- this is the darkness before the dawn.  Mindfulness has a way of shining a light on your bad stuff before it gets better.  It's very common for practitioners to feel they are actually "getting worse" before they start seeing the benefits.  The sad truth is, they're just waking up to how they really were all along!

In a normal day, most of us run on habit energy, caroming through our day doing whatever we think of to do without a lot of attention on these machinations.  But as your sitting practice grows, and mindfulness grows, and discernment arises, you get better at seeing the cravings, then you get better at letting go of them.  But it doesn't happen overnight and one slip -- at least for me -- can mean starting over from scratch in a few days when you realize what you've done.  Or even in a few minutes.  Luckily, I'm starting to feel the benefit of a month or so of dedication combined with the clearer more mindful awareness of my habits again and I'm making less poor choices.. I hope that I'm posting more and more of these as the months go on and I re-establish strong awareness of both the eating and the living, and less and less of the slips.

Enjoy this laugh from Dave Kellett's Sheldon! And check out his KickStarter for his new book...he's a great guy!

Geo

Walking Practice

 

In my last post I talked about how my meditation schedule has changed in the mornings.  I thought I might share what I'm actually practicing.  Previously I would typically wake up and:

• Recite the Five Recollections
• Begin a silent meditation for 30 minutes during which I would...
• Start with concentration meditation briefly, then...
• Move in to an open awareness practice, followed by wrapping up with....
• A quick Metta Bomb (one of my favorites taken from Pablo Das) practice at the end.

Since the new schedule has been in place, I have less time for the silent sit, and more time for doing practice while I walk, which I've always enjoyed doing.  So now the practice morning looks like this:

• Walking Meditation begins with...
• The Five Recollections, followed by...
• 24 Brand New Hours by Thich Nhat Hanh recitation
• Breath Awareness for a bit, then...
• Walking with my Ancestors practice from TNH, followed by....
• Mindful Walking for a bit, and finally...
• Metta or some other heart practice, then just before work I do...
• Silent Sitting practice that is just open awareness the whole time.

Though I am rooted in Theravada Buddhism, I first encountered Buddhism (and walking meditation) through Thich Nhat Hanh and I still enjoy some of those practices today.  My walking practice, the recollections, the 24 hours bit,  and the ancestor stuff are all from TNH and they're lovely to do.  I recommend them for anyone regardless of what tradition you call home.

Shake it up!

“The answer, provided in this book, is not to begin with what you put on your plate. Rather, you begin with what is already inside you, with your awareness and experience of every moment you live—what the authors call mindfulness” ~ Thích Nhất Hạnh & Lilian Cheung. “Savor.”

I am cautiously optimistic that my exercise routine is getting back on track. Cautious because I've gone stretches as much as two weeks following my food and exercise plans precisely only to have one rainy day, or one take out pizza brought home by my wife, derail it.  To be clear I'm not blaming the weather or the wife.  It's my fault alone.

I did perfect all last week, until the weekend, then I indulged a little more than I should, and didn't walk as much as I should, but I still did moderately ok.  Monday I hit it hard again and have done great all week. The interesting thing is that last week I struggled to get moving in the mornings, and could definitely see all the ways my mind was trying to get me off the hook.  It was a successful week, but not a fun one.

This week, I've woken up early (even by my standards) and been ready to go.  I have felt more energized as I walked, rather than less.  If history is any indicator this is the sign that I'm settling in to the habit, rather than pushing myself to do it.  I hope so, as my walks this week have been energizing sessions of exercise and meditation practice that have really set the tone for my day in a positive way.

Along with all of that, my new morning routine has -- by necessity -- shaken up my morning routine and the results have been surprising. Typically, I wake early in the morning...five or so...and I meditate for 20 minutes.  I LOVE morning meditation as it just seems to come easier.  I fall in to concentration smoothly and I'm refreshed so I never fall asleep.  It's just easier.

With the new schedule, I'm getting up at the same time,or earlier, and I'm hitting the streets first thing.  I guess this isn't my new routine, it's my old routine that I fell out of.  But the part that is different is that I have a teenager now and through a series of conditions, I now get to leave for work super early!  SO, my shake up is that I can now get to work early enough to grab a coffee and meditate at the park near my office.  This is giving me a shorter meditation time for my morning sit - down to 20 from 30 - but means I'm meditating AFTER exercise which means my mind is fully alert and I have more going on.  This doesn't sound good, but I find it's more to sit with, which has a different but not better quality. Also, I get to meditate in nature!  This is especially nice...at least right now.  And best of all I walk in to work freshly meditated.

I thought this new schedule was going to be a problem, but even with the reduced time meditating on my first meditation of the day, I find the quality of it is better and my overall day is benefiting greatly from all of this. Can't beat that! 

We'll see how it's going in a few weeks.  I'll keep you posted!

Let's try this one more time....

Well, this is weird.  I started a blog called Mondo Samu almost 10 years ago.  About 5 years ago I drifted away from it. I tried getting it going again a few times, but never did.  Last time I posted was in 2016.

When I started it it was about my efforts around weight loss and Buddhism, though I wasn't buddhist yet. I think every time I tried to get back in to it, I felt like I had to write about weight loss and what I really was interested in was Buddhism.

Well, now, closing in on the tenth anniversary of the blog, I find I need to write about both again.  Let's talk about weight loss first.  July 3rd, 2010 I hit my breaking point with my weight. I knew something had to change and I had no idea how to do it.  In a comedic moment of what many might say was serendipity, I stumbled -- right at the exact moment I needed it most -- across Thich Nhat Hanh's book Savor.  Really it was Dr. Lilian Cheung and TNH, but it is often credited to TNH. Long story short, I lost 110 pounds in 11 months and kept it off for many years. And lived happily ever after.

As for Buddhism I was hooked instantly and haven't looks back since.  I LOVED the four noble truths the moment I read them as they appeal directly to the geeky tech-support guy in me.  A simple problem solving system that is nothing short of elegant.  So my buddhist path has unfolded daily and gotten stronger over time and I look forward to talking about that a lot.

Why now?  Why get this going again in 2019?  Is it because the anniversary is looming?  Because I'm bored? No.  It's because a minor vehicle issue a few years ago disrupted my routine and in short order I had fallen off of my exercise routine.  Blah blah Blah, and here we are with me having gained over half the weight back.  I'm not happy to say that....less happy to say it publicly....but it's reality. So, while I'm in much better shape than the last time I had to get serious about weight loss, I'm also 10 years older and finding it MUCH harder to do again.

So...what I've done is archived the old blog.  Some of those posts were great in my eyes, some of them did not stand the test of time.  I felt like they were worth holding on to for reference, but didn't need to be here.  I created the brand new blog you're reading here, redirected the domain to it, and will keep that old one around for any info I might need in the future from the old days.  It is a bit of a journal, after all.

Here I will -- hopefully but no guarantees -- post once again about weight loss and Buddhism and see if keeping a blog will help keep me dedicated when all I really want to do is sit in a coffee shop and play boardgames but really should be out walking.

If you have any interest, I welcome your time and attention here.  Mondo Samu was the name of the blog, and became a nickname that has caused great confusion.  Now it is a blog once more.  Hopefully the name will be applicable once more!

Let's do this.